confused

I wrote a lot this weekend in a notebook. I have killed my laptop for the time being and until I get another...I guess I will just be blogging little bits and pieces. I wrote a note that I am thinking of sending to my family. But I am unsure -- because right at this moment I am angry and distraught and making a huge decision like the one I am about to make can work against me. I have asked for contact information for the rest of my family and have yet to get it. I believe I asked for it on the 29th. What I really want, is a confrontation with my father and mother. I don't know if I will ever get such a meeting, but I guess if I really wanted to, I could.