Geeze...

Geeze, I just lost my whole blog! Now I will have to try to remember all the things I said?? Hmm...

SLEEPWALKING
I can tell I was sleeping while I was typing "World Lupus Day" because I had to make minor changes to spelling and some grammar checks. I have always had a problem with sleepwalking, ever since I was a small child. My mom used to tell me stories, where I would pick up magazines and try to go out the front door. Until this day, I still do the same, except I actually sew, post blogs, pay bills, etc. I think you get the point and of course, while I am sleeping I can make some crazy mistakes. I get very emotional as well -- I talk on the phone, write letters, yes, I am starting to sound like a crazy psych patient.

LUNCH
I ran to the grocery store. Even though I sent my husband to the grocery store three times last night and he forgot to buy my kleenex for my car. I have to have the small one that fits in the middle console. Yes, I am OCD like that. I bought a few extra to keep in the trunk. I have tissues every where in my house. I use them every day. And it has to be a certain kind. Kleenex brand with lotion. I bought dinner and snacks, brought it all back to work and marinated and cut up veggies and fruit.

LACROSSE
I have to pick up today and Thursday. I am the "pick up" parent, plus the uniform parent. I hope my daughter took the sandwich to eat inbetween school and lacrosse practice or else, she will be starving and possibly might faint!! Even though I am bringing food I have doubts that she will be able to eat right away after practice - anyhow.

SHELTER
Last night, when I ran to pick up my daughter from the homeless shelter, I got dragged into serve...so we were there till pretty late. I ended up bringing food home that we served and just ate really late. By the time I got into bed and started doing stuff it was way past my bedtime.

HISTORY
I would like to know a little about my family history. I only get to know one side. I have many questions, mainly about my health, but just general ones will do. I guess you could say that my "inner" fears are holding me back. The separation or whatever it is called - caused trauma, now it always triggers the memory of being left behind. It is crazy, because it has been years and years now and I have yet to visit with my other side of the family.

monday...

Another week has passed and here we go on to the next one. My crazy life is just filled with so many activities, it could make your head spin. I had to go over to my neurologist's office today to pick up some samples of Lyrica (Yes, my pain in the ass insurance gets funded on the 15th and today is the 10th). I was having chest pain, but I have had it over the weekend. It is like when my hand or leg starts to cramp up and I have no control...like the blood accumulates in an area and it hardens, turns kind of purplish and I have to massage it or almost hit it to let go. I have been having that on my chest. Moreover to the left side and I massage it throughout the day.
Local Homeless Shelter
Tonight, my daughter and I go with our church to feed the local homeless shelter. My aunt buys all the food (funds from the church), they prepare it, cook it and then serve it. Since I am working, I will only serve and help clean up.
8 to 5 Grind
Today, I go back to working 8 to 5, like the normal person. I generally work 8 to 4:30 in the winter because of light issues. I have night blindness. I really depend on my navigation when I am in areas that I don't know. I try to stay to areas where I know and have memorized streets and fixtures.