too many?

How many diagnoses does a person need? As much as they ask for? For as many symptoms as they have? I just know that I have many, to the point that sometimes I can't remember all of them. I know for sure that I can't recall all of the medications I have taken or even tried. I want to know why: (a) an answer; (b) the patient will stop harassing; (c) have no clue? The money that is spent on health care is amazing. I can't even begin to tell you how much I have spent. Especially on medications. Were they really necessary? I was surviving at one point without any medication, now I have a whole cabinet full of medications that I am supposed to be taking. The only way that I have found to get off a medication, is to just stop it myself. Say, "oops, I forgot." And I have survived. But others...(my doctors) say that if I stop, that I will die. Can they be ever so blunt? That my life counted on several mixes of pills depending on what kind of symptoms. I am allergic to what seems like EVERYTHING. I see specialists in all kinds of fields and yet it is never enough. The testing...has to be the worse. Yes, for one, two, etc. You will need this to fix this, that, etc. I am so fatigued. But I can't rest. My anxiety overcomes me. And here I am, blogging. I have pain medications, but I don't want to take it because my bowels are bad enough as it is. I have lidocaine and frankly, it is just GROSS. I've done many nasty things for treatment, but this is just insane. Taking the multiple laxatives...stool softeners...enimas...high fiber diet...nothing works.

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