Tuesday

MIA

Missing-In-Action: Definition?? It obviously speaks for itself. I was brought up with both parents being MIA most of the time, but I'd have to say I don't have a dad.
Recently, I have found that I do indeed have a living dad. I have received his phone number, but have decided not to contact him. As I found my dad, I found other relatives. I'm supposed to visit, but then again, my life here is falling apart. I have to take a step back and think of myself and my family here.
Yesterday, my tragedy was finding out that I needed all these crazy tests and crazy specialists for specialists [yes, I did say it twice]. What was even more remarkable was that one of the specialists' office that I called had an office person who worked for one of my old specialist-neprhologist, which I haven't seen since 2000. I have mixed feelings of what I will find or encounter. I talked with my husband about it and felt that it was best to not talk about it until we have some confirmed results. We will just act as always...appointments, as usual, just a lot more scheduled.
I have been bleeding for over two weeks now. Maybe it is making up for lost time? Who knows? I didn't even blink an eye, but my rheumatologist seemed very concerned [maybe that's just his job]. I see a gyn tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes.
I have asked that a celebration be made of my daughter's birthday and graduation, but my family doesn't really seem to care. My daughter's idea was just to have a family dinner. What a disappointment when no one shows. I guess we'll just play it by ear. Life is full of let downs.

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